I Know an Introvert – Poetry

I know an introvert, who almost does not exist,
because I am invisible to people; people who are visible to me.
Who can I blame for being unnoticeable?
I am only an introvert.

I know an introvert, who prefers chatting to ‘face-to-face’ interaction.
“Chicken!” They call me, because I become two different persons:
Fearful when talking, and fearless when chatting.
Who can I blame for being a chicken?
I am just an introvert.

I know an introvert who makes a decision out of her indecisions,
but I can’t stand by it because I’m not sure how well it’s going to work.
After everything, it turns out so bad.
Who do I blame for the bad outcomes?
I am just an introvert.

I know some persons, they make life difficult for me by frustrating me.
What did I do wrong to get frustrated?
I am only an introvert.

I go somewhere, to buy something but the price is too high.
I try to beat it down to no avail.
I buy it, but I know I’ve been cheated.
Who do I blame for cheating me?
I am just an introvert.

I take something from someone, just as people always take and use my stuff
I am ‘caught’ and I’m being tagged a thief.
No one to defend me, I can’t defend myself.
I am embarrassed.
Who do I blame for embarrassing me?
I am just an introvert.

I do a wonderful job, but I can’t claim ownership.
Someone else sees and admires it, and claims it because no one is claiming it.
They get credit for my work.
Who do I blame for the ‘job’ they do?
I am only an introvert.

I lent out some money to someone who promised to return it.
I need my money, but I can’t ask because I don’t want to be embarrassed.
I am broke, so I borrow money from someone else.
Who do I blame for my inability to ask for my money back?
I am just an introvert.

I go to the market to get something, but I can’t find it.
People are looking at me and I’m feeling insecure.
I buy something useless to me, so they won’t think I came to leave empty-handed.
I waste money, trying to defend myself against people who didn’t query me.
Who do I blame for the money wasted?
I am just an introvert.

I hurt myself trying to protect people who can’t see it.
They get hurt in the process and think I’m being wicked for hurting them.
Who do I blame for the ‘hurts’?
I am only an introvert.

I know some people who think I am proud because I barely talk.
Little do they know that my confidence eludes me when it comes to physical communication.
Who do I blame for their assumption?
I am just an introvert.

I’m in class, the teacher asks a question and no one is responding.
I have an inkling, but not the courage to talk.
The teacher gets angry because no one is responding and she gives a test.
I only have an inkling which can probably not answer the questions correctly.
Who do I blame for the impromptu test?
I am just an introvert.

I meet someone who wants to borrow money, and I am almost lending it.
I suddenly remember there is someone refusing to pay me what they owe.
“I must not suffer again” I say to myself.
I tell them my money has already been budgeted.
“Stingy girl. You are so selfish” they say.
Who do I blame for this unfair accusation?
I am only an introvert.

There is a social gathering and we must compulsorily pay a sum of money.
I know I won’t attend, but I must still pay.
I pay the money, and feel like I’ve wasted money.
Who do I blame for being unsociable?
I am just an introvert.

I meet someone who claims he loves me.
I love him too, but I can’t bring myself to agreeing that I love him,
because I don’t know what my parents or the people around me would say.
I lose him; probably forever.
Who do I blame for losing the one I love?
I am just an introvert.

We are to buy something for a particular assignment.
I am not getting it until everybody gets theirs, because the last time something like this happened,
I was the only one who bought it, so the work got cancelled.
I wasted money and it’s not going to happen; not again.
Everyone got theirs and finished their assignments without my knowledge.
I’ve been waiting in vain.
They get their reward and I am moody.
Who do I blame for my dependence on people?
I am only an introvert.

It’s a week to the deadline, yet no hope.
I am worried, I am fearful.
I don’t want to be embarrassed;
It ruins my self-esteem.
People keep telling me there’s one week for me to get it done.
But the one week looks like one day, and I must get it done before the day runs out.
Who do I blame for my fears and worries?
I am just an introvert.

I know an introvert;
I know an introvert everyone misunderstands.
Who do I blame for the misunderstanding?
I am just an introvert.

I know I probably know what I don’t know,
but I think I Know an introvert!